STEPS TO TAKE AFTER NARCISSISTIC ABUSE
Being
in a narcissistic relationship is bad enough, but exiting it can
prove to be the hardest thing you’ve ever done. A
narcissistic relationship isn’t just a bad relationship.
Coming out of one is like getting released from a prison
where psychological and sometimes physical damage was done to you
which may take months, years and even a lifetime to overcome and
heal.
Upon entering the relationship, you likely
never heard the term narcissist or if you did you might have given
it much thought thinking it was just a term for a self-absorbed
person. However, if you’re exiting the
relationship, either through a discard or you got lucky enough to
just leave it, you know it was much more than that.
I know when I left the narcissist my entire
life had been turned upside down both mentally and physically.
Standing there at the crossroads of my future I had no idea
of which way to go. Prior to the narcissist I had
been married to a wonderful girl for 30 years, had a job, a nice
house, three cars and the future looked good.
This in spite of the fact that both my wife and I had just gone
through treatment for cancer. In my wife’s case
hers was much worse, but she had a chance of survival.
Mine was much less and the prognosis was good.
Then she died.
The shock of her death was unbelievable, but I
was determined to move on, as she wished. Then I
met the narcissist. Within a little under two
years everything I had worked for was gone. The
home was in foreclosure, the cars, job and everything was history.
Much of that was because I simply wasn’t able
to deal with the game-playing mind games of the narcissist.
It all just slipped away. But here I was,
lost with no direction to go. It felt like my
life was over.
So, what to do? Well, here’s
what I did, and it worked and I’ll pass it on to you.
First let me tell you that thankfully we didn’t marry, have
children, so my experience may not entirely match yours.
I have
another article on this site which addresses those instances.
1.
DETERMINE TO HEAL
The first thing to do is to DETERMINE that
you’ll never go back to that which you were freed of.
Many victims of narcissistic abuse keep themselves on a sort
of Yo-Yo after the relationship is over thinking that somehow,
someday the narcissist will change, see the light, and the
relationship will start again.
NOT GOING TO HAPPEN!
In the beginning the narcissist manipulated
their way into your life by a carefully crafted system in order to
get what they wanted. This is called “supply” and
it may have been money, possessions, or just to have someone on
their air to show the previous victim they were still desired.
But that’s all they came to get. After they get what they
want they began to withdrawal (devalue) and then finally move toward
discarding you. That is unless as I said you beat
them to the punch.
Most narcissists are not going to quite messing
with you even after a discard. Much more if you
leave them. Known as hoovers, they are known to
contact you even years after the relationship is technically over.
A text, a phone call, or a physical visit even years down the
road. You must be resolute in keeping your
distance from them. This may be ramped up
especially if you ended the relationship. The
narcissist hates to lose, a term which is known as narcissistic
injury.
You may have heard the term “NO CONTACT” which
means you drop off the grid. Change your phone
number to an unlisted number, block social media, etc.
Again, this can be complicated if you were
married to them, had property or children, and you have to have so
type of contact. Again, I invite you to read this
article for more information.
2.
ASSESS WHERE YOU ARE NOW
In order to grow from where you are you have to
understand what happened, and where to go from there.
This isn’t so easy in the beginning because if you’re like me
you have no idea where you are. Your mind is
jumbled, you likely cannot put a finger on exactly where things went
wrong, or if you do you may be angry at yourself for allowing this
to happen in the first place.
No experience with a narcissist is the same.
It depends on the type of experience, your particular
circumstances at the time. In the beginning when
the narcissist met you they sized you up to determine the best way
to get to what they wanted. I call this the
interview, where they see what value you were to them.
So then after the relationship the level of
recovery will be different. In my case my entire
life had shifted. Besides working my day job, I had been a
successful writer and speaker. The experience with caretaking for my
wife, as well as dealing with my own health issues had taken me off
track even before the narcissist, but after I couldn’t see that
success ever happening again.
But I simply couldn’t see that from the
perspective of where I was in the aftermath. I
needed help. Some of this help came from my own
research into narcissism, narcissistic relationships, and
narcissistic abuse. I detailed this in my book, “My
Waffles are Cold – A Man’s Guide to Abusive Women”.
In that book I talked about seeking outside help.
I saw a therapist.
Many people shun seeking psychological help,
thinking it somehow puts the blame on them. But
this isn’t the case at all. A good therapist will
listen to your story and get it into an order that you can
understand. They will help you put the puzzle
back together.
Once I understood what happened, I had a
choice. Either live in that aftermath, or pick up
the pieces and move on.
3.
PLAN FOR RECOVERY
In my case I was presented options.
I’m a US veteran so I was offered services to help me get
back in the game. One was legal, for as I said I
was basically broke, in debt and facing foreclosure.
So, they advised me to try and sell the house, file
bankruptcy, and clear the decks. This might not
be the best for everyone, but again, it was a plan.
STICK TO THE PLAN
It’s going to be hard. Much
of what I experienced was psychological damage.
We refer to this as trauma, and the level of trauma is different for
everyone. This may be Post Traumatic Stress
Disorder, or Complex Post Traumatic Stress disorder, and this must
be diagnosed by a mental health professional. You
may need temporary medication solutions, or even long term
pharmaceutical help. You also may need longer
term counseling help even months or years afterward.
But this is important. You
are rebuilding. Sure, you can try to do it
yourself, and many have. Yet I found that during
my relationship with the narcissist I was isolated from outside
friends and family. That’s what they do in order
to control you. You may have difficulty trusting
others, especially people you hardly know to help you.
But trusting others help you save yourself from
“self-delusion”.
During the relationship with the narcissist,
you were constantly made to question your motives and thinking.
That’s not going away simply because you’re not with them
anymore. So, having a concerned third party will
help you see situations for what they are, not as your mind may
trick you into believing.
Other tips?
1. Reconnect with
friends and family. This could be difficult and
it’s likely the narcissist got to them already, trying to convince
them that YOU’RE the crazy one. Don’t push it.
If they are really your friends and love and care for you
they know what happened.
2. Get back
into “life”. The narcissist likely isolated you
from life, and/or you were so focused on them and the stuff they
were up to that they took most of your concentration from the thinks
you love, such as hobbies, etc. So, get up and
get back into those things. Take your time, there
is no rush but DO IT!
3. Keep your eye on
the goal and realize you are getting better day by day.
You are growing, so keep learning about your experience.
You’ll get better and soon finding yourself a survivor
instead of a victim
Good luck and God Bless!
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